Jane Nishioka
Los Angeles, U.S.A.

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In January 2012, when I visited Lone Pine, California, I saw a double rain-bow. I thought, "Oh, something good is going to happen this year!”

When I returned to Los Angeles, however, I received the news that my breast cancer from several years before had recurred.

I'm a nurse and have an idea of what it means to have a recurrence of cancer. I was told it had metastasized to my liver. Hearing this turned my world upside down. I was tired, confused, frightened, and full of what-if's. I felt as if I had fallen into a dark pit of despair. I cried by myself in bed several days.

While lying in bed praying, crying, meditating, and reciting Psalm 23, I came to this verse: "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me." It hit me: "God is with me." That moment God lit a candle of hope in my heart. God must have wanted this to be a wake-up call to my soul. I needed to reassess my life's priorities, so I asked myself, "What is really important to me? If I am to die tomorrow, what should I do today?" It suddenly occurred to me that my deepest desire is that my children and future generations have a clear-cut experience of receiving the Holy Spirit and that they carry on the original gospel faith.

(2012)